When giving actually matters
Going into the Peace Corps doesn't feel like an enormous sacrifice to me. I want to do something with my life that I believe matters. For some people that means building businesses. For me it means making lives better. So I don't feel like I'm sacrificing two years. I'm just making an investment towards my future career objectives.
In order to make that investment I have had to make certain other choices. How often I will see my family, forgoing amenities while I am away, two years of income. And I've also had to make a sacrifice that is currently gnawing away at me.
For eight years I've been a vegetarian. I stopped eating meat because I don't want to be responsible for death, human or animal. But I've had to face the feasibility of that lifestyle choice, that principle, in going to Africa. If I am offered meat and I refused then I may be insulting my hosts who honor me with what is to them an impressive gift. Or I may not be able to find sufficient protein if I go without meat.
I've begun eating meat again. I don't want to give my system too much of a shock when I eat meat in Africa, so I'm preparing myself. But I've spent eight years believing that meat is a terrible thing and disassociating it from any relation to food. And now I hate the texture, the taste, and the experience of having meat in me.
I thought that returning to meat would be like any other choice. In order to go to Africa I would eat meat, lack a flush toilet, and go without winter. But for me vegetarianism has never been a choice. It's been a principle.
Which leaves me wondering which of my principles are for sale towards future goals.
